Sunday, July 20, 2008

Depression

I'm in a depressive state.
Perfect depressive state.

I was made to get into trouble with my boss regarding to the presentation that I had mentioned before.
I've gotten to have not be able to believe my boss and my company.

I had been thinking that the "account executive" of the advertising agency "drafted a plan and proposed it" to a client, and "did sales activities to clients." Thus the sales person of the ad agency called "account executive," didn't it? But my boss's thought were clearly different from my thought.

His thoughts were:
"It was a work of creative persons to produce a plan," and "accout executive did only solve the matter related to money/income, such as making estimates and making and doing invoice activities."

I think that his image of account executive is not the "account executive" but "accounting executive."

I had been thinking of being big person as an account executive, but I had maden a big mistake in selecting a company.

For what, I had been working for about two months without any holidays to prepare for the presentation?
For what, I had been staying up all night for three days before the presentation?

After the presentation, I had been taking substitute holidays gradually.
Then my boss said that I had taken too much holidays.
Did I bother my clients by taking holidays?
Did I bother my company by taking holidays?
I took holidays on dull days...
I just took substitute holidays...
He didn't say nothing when I had over worked, but he did say anything when I took holidays.
What a terrible boss he was.

There are other matters.
But I know that it makes no solution if I write them here.

There is only way to solve them by myself.

So I decided to quit curret office by July 25.
And now, I'm looking for new job opportunity by taking substitute holidays.

I've already taken some meeting examinations.
The results are not come out so far, but I think that things are going to go well.

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うつです。
完全にうつ状態です。

前に触れたプレゼンに関することで上司と一悶着あった。
上司もそして会社も信じられなくなった。

広告代理店の"企画営業"は、「企画を考え提案」し、「クライアントに営業活動をする」から、企画営業と呼ばれていると思うのですが、上司の考えは全然違った。

「企画を考えるのはクリエイティブのやること」で、「企画営業の人間は見積もりを作って、請求処理をして、お金の回収の問題を解決するだけで良いんだ」と。

これって企画営業の仕事じゃなくて、「経理」の仕事じゃないの?

企画営業として成長したいと思っていたが、どうも入る会社を間違えたらしい。

何の為にプレゼンの準備に丸2ヶ月間、一日も休まず働いて、何の為にプレゼン直前に3日間も徹夜して頑張ったんだろう???

プレゼンが終わって、休まずに働いた代休を少しずつ取っていた。
そしたら上司から「休みすぎだ」と言われた。
僕が休むことでクライアントに迷惑が掛かっているか?
僕が休むことで会社に迷惑が掛かっているか?
全く問題ない休み方をしたのに...
代休を取っただけなのに...
働きすぎてる時には何も言わないくせに、休みを取ると文句を言う。
最低な上司だ。

他にも色々ある。
でも、ここに書いたところで何も解決しない。

自分で解決するしかない。

なので、7月25日付けで今の会社を辞めることにした。
今は代休を消化しながら転職活動をしている。

もう既に何社かの一次面接を受けた。
結果はまだだが、何とかなるだろう。

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1 comment:

La ratlla blava said...

Hola! En japonés no entiendo nada:pero no estes triste!